Jesus, what do we think of that name when we say it, scream it, or moan it? It’s definitely a name that we have all said before, even read about at some point in our lives. And we hear it all the time, everyday. Jesus this, Jesus that. Jesus bumper stickers. Jesus F—-kin’ Christ! Jesus freak. Jesus heals. Jesus walked on water. Jesus was sacrificed for our sins. Guilt trip? I don’t think so. Jesus was around during a time when there were a large number of prophets and healers testing the waters. So why did his name stick around? Why did his book go on to be the biggest selling book ….EVER! It’s in every hotel room in America. Most cultures know him as a prophet. For us here in the “States” Jesus is the gateway to heaven and the afterlife.
Sometimes images would come into my head whenever that name was spoken. I went to Catholic school and church, so for me the main image was of him upon the cross. It was confusing after a while, especially the first time I met a family who told me that they didn’t believe in God or Jesus. “We are Atheists” , they said. I was in shock, I didn’t know that such a thing was possible. I mean how could you not believe in Jesus? I mean we had documents that proved he was here. I was so confused….and then they began to explain to me why they didn’t. “Evolution” they said. Right then I knew that I didn’t study hard enough in Biology and science. It was truly a scary day for me. I’ll never forget standing in front of their house as they explained to me why they chose to believe in Science rather than spirituality. I was so shaken to the core that I stopped speaking to him in school. The whole idea just blew me out of the water. The world as I had understood it (I was 13 at the time) was now at an end. I found myself with my stomach in my mouth. Sick to my stomach. Physically ill. Everything that I had been taught was being questioned in an intelligent manner and with a compelling argument. What was I to do? I did what any frightened little kid would do….I went to Church.
I mean, don’t you find it a little obvious that the name Jesus is EVERYWHERE. Like we were indoctrinated into some big fictional belief. Still the name was everywhere. Yeah, the name was everywhere. It had to be true to have withstood the test of time. All grandma’s and grandpa’s told their grandchildren all about Jesus, didn’t they? Folk tales usually can be traced to some form of a truthful beginning. Right? But through all of those doubts I stuck with it for a couple more years until, the Church itself ruined it for me. (but that’s all in another post here) I finally went out into the world to make my own decisions and to develop my own personal belief system.
My first “real” test was at the ripe old age of 22, when I had my first suicide attempt. The circumstances surrounding this shameful event in my past were pretty typical. I was playing in a rock and roll band for a while and I began to take “partying” more seriously than playing the music. It’s funny in retrospect, because all through those experiences I was always writing. Poetry, song lyrics etc… But my first real test was when I woke up in the hospital, in a psyche ward, because of suicide watch you know? I was in a room with a bunch of seriously twisted individuals and the very first thing I did was to get down on my knees and pray. It’s funny how extreme situations really “do” bring out the truth in people. I was on my knees so quick that there was absolutely NO doubt, in any ones mind, what I was doing on my knees. That’s right, I was praying my ass off to GOD. It was a completely natural response. I didn’t even think about it. It was just what I knew to be true. Jesus! doesn’t any one understand me ? That was my mantra for 32 days in that looney bin. It’s what got me through the horror of watching people urinate on one another, rub their own feces on the walls, dribble running down their chins, from being overly medicated. The place was a nightmare. But you know what? Jesus and God got me through it. I never doubted the existence of God and Jesus again. Of course, I never went back to the church itself but I incorporated my faith in God, with other things I had been discovering, and had come to believe to be truths as well. That’s pretty much how my faith in Jesus was truly cemented. I could feel him after that experience of a 32 day escape from reality, and a serious meditation on Jesus and God. Yes, feel him. I knew he was there, inside me. The psych ward had proven it to me. JESUS! I was one scared kid….
I guess my point in all of this is quite simple. Jesus exists in the minds of men for a reason. Have you ever read the book called “As a man thinketh?” It’s a very short book, but the gist can be easily summed up. As a man thinketh, so is he……..in other words, what you think about the most, in you mind, will manifest itself in times of desperate measures. It isn’t hard to understand why people believe in Jesus. (because it’s in our everyday speech and field of vision). what’s interesting about it is that some people while under duress will do just the opposite….they will lose their faith completely. As though God or Jesus had let them down personally. Like they were taking offense at the matter. And God could not exist be cause it wasn’t their fault in the first place. It forces you to decide what you believe in. It forces you to decide or risk your sanity. For me, personally, my faith in Jesus has never been shaken since that first test……..thank God!………I am Dartanion2……..and that’s the way I see it!………….cheers……….t xx
Georgina Richardson said:
I`v said before that I`m not a church goer as I think mans interpretation is too dictatorial and so miserable talking about sin all the time. I agree there are a lot of people in the world who commit terrible atrocities and it seems that every century the world is subjected to evil dictators, but the vast majority of people are good and law abiding souls. We all do wrong at least a couple of times in our lives but so long as we learn and repent from those mistakes I do believe that God forgives us for those mistakes.
My mum and dad and Andrew have proved to me that God exists and that we all go on to a better place when we die. I have had three visions during sleep but I`ve had over twenty visions when awake and the more I meditate the easier it is for me to have those visions. I talk out loud all the time to them and they sign or allow me to lip read and they show me pictures of what they are telling me, they have written in large letters a message to me on a blackboard that Andrew had gone fishing that day, then I saw him smile and wave and blow a kiss to me. So Jesus and God are very real T`
Love G xx
Yeah, I know you do G, I just had one of those days yesterday, and I think I wrote that post more for me than anything else. I had someone ask about my beliefs yesterday and I think I was just working some stuff out, (most of that post was repetitive, something I have already written in a previous post) but I haven’t really written about the entirety of my personal belief system, I think I was just thinking about how to put it all down in words……anyway, enough about me, I am glad I got to hear this comment, I didn’t really know the extent to which your visions had been occurring….that’s some pretty amazing stuff….I think we need to talk about that some more…….soon……..ttyl……t xx
Cherie Sumner said:
It’s funny, T., when you talk of Jesus, my heart just leaps because I know He is very real, and I also know He appreciates you standing up for your belief in Him. I love our God and I appreciate the blessings He brings into my life, despite the pain I endure, I know He loves us all very much. I have real issues with the establishment of the churches today….as the hypocrisy and deceptions taught allow the antiChrist amongst us since Jesus’ day run rampant. Jesus spoke out so much against the Pharisees and Sadducee of His day….the way they were ritualistic to a fault, and forgot the simple importance of loving one another and their neighbor. We are all connected by the Holy Spirit that dwells in our hearts and when we tune in to our inner pure spirits…God can talk and move us in amazing ways…He also brings others into our lives with that same spiritual discernment, to benefit our lives to His glory. He moves us into the same circles for His purposes….and sometimes we are not aware of it. But when we are, it is profound! Jesus is not an icon….He is the living Song of God, our promise of eternal life out of His love that connects us all in amazing ways. His energy is in every living thing. Enjoyed your story of how you came to ‘feel God.’ I feel Him too, and could never deny Him. I see Him in the aura of who you are. It is beautiful T! 😉
Alice Lawson said:
So many delightful evidences from your post on Jesus. I know Him in many ways but for Father God’s true heart of love he came to be my whole reason for living and finding love through abuse and grief that never could take me from Him. Through suffering He becomes the greatest lover of each of our souls from the heart of God our divine Creator and Father. We live because of who His is and our hearts. Spirits and soul is in His care . He nurtures us through every deep valley and never forsakes nor leaves us. He taught me everything spiritually and has increased my spiritual experiences so richly along the way. I relate so strongly to those who are now in their time opening up more as He connects our lives lovingly together. I have had so many visions and God appointments no matter how difficult the days or health of others I was a caregiver for or their families and within my family both natural birth and reunited or adoptive family or extended ones. We are given greater relational connection and it is given and protected by the Holy Spirit of Father God and Jesus is really our hearts delight above all others and leafs us to love more and more with His heart strengthening us to increase in love. I too do not enjoy any of nan’s false manipulations or scare you into believing tactics either and find myself as a spiritual child of Father God and brought forth with the relational reality of Jesus being the greatest proof of that undying love and resurrected power that proves to our spirit and souls that nothing can separate us from His perfect pure Love in Christ. It is not through lots of religious or vain arguments of man’s making but in the gracious never ending power that supports us so tenderly and that engraves this reality above all realms , regions or dimensions upon our hearts and lives within us by tenderness from Jesus sacrificial out pouring and how Father God gives us that within to know and respond and put all out hopes and trust in faith. We live by His Light, vibrancy that penetrates all darkness that may come upon us and hinder us and by His perfect compassion , forgiveness He is graciously using restorative resurrection energy to bring us to Himself. Family in Him so we reflect and benefit from the blessings of all this. We love each other this way and others also that we trust may benefit in their life’s journey too. We love Him because truly He loved us first. I hope this js not too long but I know Tony you encouraged me to share when I could. Be blessed and surrounded with His holy loving embrace and holy Fatherly kiss and I trust He delivers it to all your loved ones and dear sons Dartanion and Griffin that they might rejoice in their life journeys with such love from you and your Mom and family. They are going in way covered by your blessings and hearts desire to encourage and give them a spiritual legacy of a father’s love which is truly powerful in light of Father God and Jesus. No greater gift can anyone give ! Love founded on this mighty foundation and pure untainted love witnesses to those who have know and experienced this depth of relationship that never ends . To you dearest Tony from the Father’s heart and mine. Your Kate
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Hi Guys!!……It’s a Sunday………..here’s a post I did on Jesus…….let me know what you think………HELLO to Brazil , UK, and Australia……….thanks for the numbers you guys………..smiles……..tony xx