So, yesterday I went to the doctor for foot injections. I thought I was going to be put under and then injections injected, after which I would awaken like routine. Turns out, there was nothing routine about it. First, there was no anesthesia, I was placed in a small exam room when my Doc came in to explain that we were going to do this topically so we could get some direct results. They sprayed a topical on the area directly over the three main nerves going into the foot where they took long needles directly to them. These needles have cameras in the tip. The first injection went in and both the nurse and the Doctor looked at me oddly, when I asked why they said “look”. I looked down at blood spurting as they asked if I take aspirin. I said what’s that got to do with anything, there wasn’t, what they were shocked about was that hadn’t moved at ALL. No response to a needle stuck directly in to a main nerve.. Not Good. We did this twice more. Same results. What does this mean? Means that my nerves in my feet are nearly dead. The injections put nerve blockers which were to end ALL pain for at least 48 hours. Today there is no difference. Except the injections sites hurt today, which means more pain than usual. This all means that we move to the next step ……..abdominal blockers………if that doesn’t work, we move to the “Spinal Cord Stimulator” and a biopsy. Over all a “NOT SO POSITIVE” day. It’s funny what the mind does when you get this kind of news. Imagining all the worst scenarios is one of them. I was supposed to be supportive for a dear friend when I came home, but I couldn’t bring myself to be positive enough to make the phone call she was expecting, needless to say, I let her down because I was wallowing in self pity. Several hours later I called her to apologize. Guess what she said..”I was just worried about you!”……I’ve been much better ever since. Words, are so important. MORE important to an individual who is sensitive to health questions, because they face questions of their own mortality. SO what I learned was………WORDS! They are so important……..the fact that she was more concerned with me when she was having problems of her own………brought me out of my temporary pity party. I’m smiling again today. WORDS. There so important. So, I know me………..come what may, I will be a fighter. And most of all, I will be sensitive to WORDS as they carry so much weight. The words of my friend from yesterday will met with enthusiastic praise today……..because today, I am a poet. And poets know words………..WORDS!……….I am Dartanion2…….and that’s the way I see it…………..cheers………..t
After the Doctor……..here’s what we know…..WORDS!!!
17 Sunday Aug 2014
Cherie Sumner said:
My Dear Tony, I hurt in my heart when I know that you are in pain. I am sorry that yesterday’s doctor appointment was depressing with the discovery of how progressed your nerve damage is. I wish I could take away your pain. I am always amazed at your resilience and positive energy. You had every right to have a hard time digesting the events of yesterday. It was not the news you hoped, and you needed time to process it. You are never alone in it…..just know that. I will always be here for you. I care about your health, and I understand the disappointments. I have my share with my own strange nerve issues of my feet. I will face whatever I have to face, and also whatever you must endure with your disease. I will be there with you…no matter what. God brought our lives together and has done amazing things and I trust in that. He is in control . Feel my hand in yours, love. I am here, My prayers are upon you. My heart with yours. Love, Cherie
have I told you I love you, Today?…….wow!
Alice Lawson said:
Dearest Tony, Please know you are dearly loved by many who care so much. Your post today is so very meaningful. You share what a person goes through when medical attempts to help ease pain do not reveal a hoped for outcome. You share from you heart so honestly. I appreciate that about you so much but the brave arising as a poet and words that travel to you and uplift you in spirit and bring you back to your loved ones and friends and that inspires you with light upon thw path to go forth and share again. That is so very brave in the battle of life. I admire, appreciate and love you dearest Tony as does Cheri and so many others too. Your family knows how brave in this battle you are. Your heart and soul shine out like a beacon in the darkness so it lights upon others who need encouragement as well. A legacy for your dear sons to be very proud of to have such a Dad. No one wants you to suffer so much but we see you rise up time and time again giving voice to others as well as your self through sharing your amazing Words! Bless you so much for that dearest friend Tony. Continue to be bathed in the love of those who care about everything you are bravely and honestly enduring and all the prayers sent your way from our hearts to yours . We likewise value you and the Words that you choose and pour out of you in love upon others . Be blessed. Sending hugs and kisses to you but Father God’s Tenderness and deepest Love and Holy Hug most of all! Your Kate in peaceful places to you xxxooo:) 🙂 🙂
Hi Kate, I can only say to you this; it is a miracle in my mind that you and I have managed to remain friends for almost 19 months now…..amazing how God finds just what you need when you need it……..you’re a blessing my friend……..can’t thank you enough……smiles…….T xx
Georgina Richardson said:
You must give yourself time to digest all this information T` and just take it slowly sweety, we are all praying for you honey and things will work out in the end. You have every right to feel upset about this latest turn of events because this illness is not just a flu bug is it, it`s a life changer and it will always be hard to cope with, but you are a strong willed man and I know for certain that you will get through this. I may not be there physically but I`m with you constantly in spirit sweety, you are not alone and you never will be. You now have Cherie to help you through all this so things are positive honey, just give yourself time to get through all this. We are all with you in this and always will be. The thought of having big long needles in such a sensitive part as the feet just makes me go shivery thinking about it. So actually going through it and still be able to tell us all about what it was like and how you felt after, when you really think about it sweety! that takes in itself one heck of a lot of pure guts and determination. You may not feel that you are coping very well but believe me sweety you really really are getting through all this with stars on honey. So don`t knock yourself, you are very brave and what you are going through is a very serious illness, it`s not just a corn on your big toe is it honey!!!!
I love you very much sweety, so never forget that will you?!