Hi guys, today I would like to discuss LOVE!! It’s healing power. It’s universality. And it’s effects on me, personally. The picture you’re looking at is the woman who has brought me closer to understanding Love, and it’s many gifts, than I have ever known. Her name is Cherie, and she is my heart. When I first got sick Doctors told me I would probably be in a wheelchair and may never walk again. Needless to say I plummeted into depression and self pity. For nearly a year I accepted home health care as my only option and I was (for the most part) housebound, depressed and bereft of hope. Then, I began having conversations with God through prayer, mostly. It came to me that (or God allowed me to see) I needed an outlet for my frustrations so, I began writing. I joined a poetry site and began this blog. During my first few weeks of pouring out massive amounts of writing I was beginning to feel some relief from my depression and had gained ” a reason” for waking up each day. My writing began creating new friendships and enhancing old ones. One day, on my blog, I revealed my health issues publically. I had no idea that this simple act would change EVERYTHING!! I began getting more than a “little” interest in my disease. So, I began updating the few followers of my blog on my ongoing medical treatments and condition. It was these postings that increased my blogs following and led CHERIE to discover me and my condition, because she had the early stages of Peripheral Neuropathy herself. When she read of my condition, she cried, she hadn’t been able to identify her symptoms on her own and my blog helped her find fellow sufferer. I had met her through the poetry site (cosmofunnel) and she had come to my blog only as a favor not expecting to find anything in particular. When she broke into to tears that first day she left a comment describing the moment as a “GOD” moment! My mother read that comment and told me that it was God working through me and that it was a sign that I was meant to be doing this blog and that I should open myself up to the idea. Consequently, Cherie and I began a platonic friendship that dealt with our disease and then led into discussions about poetry. We exchanged phone numbers (something I NEVER do) and we began talking fairly regularly. Our discussions began lasting, for what seemed like an hour, but were actually 4 hour blocks that seemed to whiz by without us really understanding what was happening. We discovered so much common ground that it became almost frighteningly coincidental that we could share so much and be from completely different paths and experiences. I began looking forward to those conversations……..everyday. She was becoming frightened of her feelings and we began denying to one another that this could be anything more than just a “God Blessed” friendship. Needless to say, our emotions just kept overwhelming the conversations until it started seeping into our poetry. And if you read poetry you can probably see where this is heading. My poetry began changing from writes on God and personal observations to romantic insinuation. And it felt so good to be stepping into an area that I thought was gone from my life forever. My attention to my Doctor visits began becoming more aggressive and staying inside my home completely, became going outside now and then, despite the pain involved. I found that my Doctor visits were paying dividends and treatments more frequent. My friendship with Cherie began blossoming into affection. My health began to be an obstacle. I worked harder at weekly physical therapy sessions. My Doctors and I began closing in on precise causes and approaches to alleviating pain and discomfort. I had my first spinal surgery. Cherie and I began talking every single day and the Love on the phone became so thick that my heart began jumping at the sound of the phone ringing. I had my second spinal surgery and I began taking short one block walks on my own (against doctors orders). One day, I asked Cherie if any one had told her that they loved her today? Her response made me cry. (I never cry) She responded by saying that she loved me too! Even though I hadn’t exactly said those words, she took a chance. My ENTIRE life changed in that moment. OH My God, I can’t possibly explain to you how amazing our conversations became after that. We tell each other how much we Love each other in so many ways today, that I still can’t believe it. The emotions flowing between us are not imagined, they are physically manifesting in our heartbeats and synchronicities———they are so overwhelming that they have affected EVERYTHING I know! I have been finding one answer after another where my health is concerned. My relationship with God has become a miracle in my life. I go for walks every single day to the beach. (difficult walks, but they are making me so happy that pain seems irrelevant to me now). I sit on the beach every day for two hours writing poetry and smiling and thanking God for allowing me to be a part of life again, and mostly for bringing the Love of my life into plain view. She is a miracle that I never expected. She is a miracle that I have been searching for my entire life. Love can heal my friends. Love can conquer time and distance. Love can do ANYTHING!! It is absolute. Right now, as I am writing these words I can feel her in my chest, there is a warm energy emanating from my palms. She is a part of me now and I LOVE HER unconditionally! Corny huh?——–Doesn’t make it any less true. Love is all around me, in the comment section of this blog, in the stars at night, in the poetry that I write, in my conversations with my mother, in these words I offer you here, right now. Can you feel it? Of course you can. Because, the truth only works one way. God, is love………….I am Dartanion2……….and that’s the way I see it……….cheers……t xx
“LOVE” so much more………
28 Thursday Aug 2014
Cherie Sumner said:
My dearest Tony, I am touched that you chose to write about our love story today. The words on your blog are immortalized forever…lol….. I am so proud of our relationship and the way God brought us together through our commonality of having peripheral neuropathy. The poetry site was just a stepping stone to get us to talk and find out so much more about each other.
I remember the day so clearly when you asked me if I would check out your blog. You said that there was something you wanted me to know about yourself. I had no idea that I was about to discover how we have the exact same symptoms in our health issues! It was such a great comfort to me not to feel alone in my scary world of pain. I broke down and cried reading line after line of you speaking about your illness, and connecting with everything you were saying. It was indeed a God moment! Ever since that day, I felt such a spiritual connection to you. I learned more and more about who you are as a man of God and a dear soul.
I love everything about you…..your extreme intellect, creativity, outgoing personality, confidence, positive attitude, caring nature, ambition and determination, great sense of humor, sensitivity, etc…..as I could go on forever. I am very grateful that God put you into my life and I will always be so grateful and appreciative to know you and have your love. It is the greatest blessing I have been bestowed with. I care so deeply for you that my heart feels as if it will burst trying to hold it all. Lol…a beautiful feeling. I am never alone anymore. You are always with me. I feel you.
Love is appropriate to write about as a metaphysical element of life. It is always a miracle and mysterious with its healing effects and incredible psychological phenomenon of the brain. There is no drug out there that can compare to the warm fuzzy feelings that love gives….It effects the mind, heart, body, and spirit. What drug can do that? Lol We were created by Love at its purest….God IS LOVE! So to have the love between man and woman that He designed to bring two people so close…is a blessing straight from the greatest mystery of all.
Thank you, my dear T, for honoring me with telling our story. You are precious to me and I will NEVER take lightly how special our love is. This is a love like I have never experienced. It is a beautiful metaphysical phenomenon. All my love to you. xoxoxo Cherie
Georgina Richardson said:
I`m so thrilled that you have both shared your wonderful love story, it is just beautiful to read and I`m so thrilled to see you both so happy and so in love. True love is a beautiful experience to have in our lives and I feel so lucky that Geoff and I also found true love at first sight and that God blessed us with 6 beautiful children, four very handsome boys and two absolutely beautiful daughters.
When I found you on cosmo I was thrilled straight away that Cherie saw my comments about your work which enabled you both to get in touch. I am very proud of that fact T and so happy because I knew in my soul that it was meant to happen.
You know how much I trust my sixth sense don`t you and it always comes to pass that it`s always right for me to trust it. I feel so lucky to have that ability. I feel your excitement in each other and though our relationship is platonic, I feel that excitement too and I feel so blessed that God has given both of us the privelage of true and beautiful feelings for each other with a beautiful friendship and that he has been able to make you both realise that wonderful love for each other.
I am so proud to have been the first contributer on your blog because I know I`ve been so lucky to have helped you and because of that it has got you both together. I too am also in tears of pure joy for you both and I am very proud to be your friend in this life. I love you so very much my darling BIG BEASTY BOY and I`m so very proud of you sweety. The fifth of June was one of the best and most beautiful days of my life because that was the day I found you. God bless you both sweety. I love you both so very much sweety. G xx
Cherie Sumner said:
Thank you, Georgina. God works in mysterious ways….and he used all of our friendships to accomplish amazing things. I feel very lucky to know you and have everything fall into place as it has. I am thankful that Tony has you as his friend to support and love him unconditionally. I am so proud of his blog and his strength through his illness. God bless you! xox Cherie
Alice Lawson said:
Dearest Tony and Cheri 🙂 yes, the innocent sweet discovery of a God given introduction and the special progression of this Love story that God began is so very special in its unfolding. Graceiously you both started responding and caring about each other…..yes genuinely. In a world that has so many insincere reality shows going on this is a refreshing delight and should be shared. There is a warm sincere quality to the progression and the day the first “I love you ” unhindered and eagerly honest came out…… The tears were unexpecyed as this was the recognizing sweetness of your hearts finding unity in your heartbeats being one and delighting to enter into a new dawning love filled new day. Love healing you as it is and setting you in freedom is far greater evidence coming forth of the love you share. In spirit and truth you feel each other because this is a gift of Father God in your lives and His love surrounds you both as one. This has been so gracious and lovely and written in kindness leading to integrity of your deepest heart responses. It is pure joy of your jubilant sharing and declarations of how healing and light filled it has been and continues to be ! I celebrate both your lives in this comment because you are one in Him by His Love ordained you to be as you are now ….so very much in Love xxxooo. Love always in Christ Jesus and the Father’s enormous ever giving heart of Greatest Love to you with the richest blessings being yours and flowing unto your closest dearest loved ones also. Your friend Kate ( Alice ) sending my love as well xxxooo 🙂 🙂 🙂
Cherie Sumner said:
Thank you kate (Alice). I think you explained so well the emotional release I felt the first time Tony told me he loved me. It was music to my ears. God has been a huge instigator of our love unfolding. I am proud of Tony’s write today, as I got to reminisce of the special day all over again that sent us forward in our love to feel the blessing. I appreciate your kind supportive words. I am so overwhelmed with the power of love. Lol…….love, Cherie