crossHi Guys!!……….yesterday was supposed to be the biggest Doctor’s appointment of my life…..Ha Ha………whatever could go wrong ……..went wrong………..my driver who was given instructions that it was the biggest appointment of my life got a flat tire and called for back up………..the new driver had to pick up another passenger and wound up showing up at my place at 3:30pm………..my appt. was for 2:30……….I had been on the phone with ALL 3 different agencies involved in my case……..needless to say mis-communication between them all created more chaos………and I wound up calling the University of Illinois Surgical Center for Neuro-Stimulation myself at about 4:00pm myself……….apparently the other agencies were unable to get through themselves.   So, when I called , LO and Behold, they were expecting my call and in less than three maybe four minutes I had a new appointment for next Monday at 3:30 pm……they were actually excited to hear from me and didn’t ask any questions and were just happy to re-schedule……which led me to believe that they are just as excited to get this operation under way as I am…….SO……although I was depressed, anxiety riddled, and generally pissed off……..in the end it all turned out all right……….next week I’m hiring a private transportation firm to make sure I am there on time…….but in the meantime I have to deal with pain which is steadily getting worse………what the heck……..it’s been 3 years getting this far…….what’s one more week…………interesting thing is, God, came to visit me last night………and today I’m feeling much better than usual………..hope it lasts until my new pain meds show up here on Thursday…………God has been there for me each and every day of my life and sometimes I forget that………..and during times like the one yesterday……I feel ashamed for not fully giving myself to my belief in Faith………and my Faith in God is diminished because I forgot that it is HE who is ultimately in charge and my little tantrums are more than unbecoming and a slap in the face of GOD………….I am so sorry about my selfish and unthinking behavior yesterday………I am trying my best and I know that that God knows I’m imperfect but sometimes I hate my selfish arrogance in thinking I can do anything without His help and guidance……….yesterday I acted as a fool would act,………..today……..I am a better man for it……….so do not worry…………we have so much to talk about…………….Astral projection coming up and  a fantastic piece that my friend Georgina did on “The Stars” coming up as well…….funny how things outside your control have such great messages within them if only we take the time to listen………I am Dartanion2……and that’s the way I see it……..cheers…….T XX…………………….ps.  SHOUT OUT to UK………huge numbers these past few days…………..thanx GEORGIE and Co………..smiles

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