Sometimes I consider this life and the world around me and I can’t help thinking that this place we call reality is hell.  I mean when you see the news and most of it is bad news.  Killings, wars, corruption, death of entire species of life, pollution, rape, and children who have or will never have a chance at experiencing happiness or joy.  When you walk to work you don’t even see the dying beggars on the street in front of you, having been convinced by the media that someone is doing something about it and that we should look out for ourselves and our own group of friends and loved ones.  We never get to see the angels or God or heaven.  Sometimes we see genuine kindness between human beings and we have Faith that there is something better ~ somewhere.  And sometimes we experience the joy of Love.  But for the bigger part of our lives it’s the bad we see or ignore.  It’s the daily routine of doing one thing, acquiring money, so that we can survive and make the lives of those we care about better.  We spend our entire lives working for money.  Yes, sometimes we find good fortune and the time to consider the good in this life or actually see the beauty in the nature, the trees and flowers and mountains and oceans and the spectacular world of grandeur in this reality.  But for the most part we work for money so that we can buy the time for appreciation of God and nature.  So when I consider that I am one of billions of people who work to provide the 1% of us who enjoy the fruits of the rest of our labors I sometimes want to die.  Because I am sure that even if there is no God or heaven that being dead is more liberating than being aware that our mundane lives have little to do with true happiness.  When I am absolutely sure that, having been out of my body, that there is way more to experience beyond this reality and I am in a hurry to get to that place where true happiness may be possible, when this reality provides very few opportunities for happiness, in fact, I have never met one person who could honestly say, that more than a few experiences in there entire lifetime have been happy.  Most people smile and say yes I am happy that I have made better lives for my children or I am happy that I contributed to helping save the rainforest, so yes peoples lives may be dotted with some happy experiences but never admit that their interior lives are hollow and lonely. It’s why I love to spend my time focusing on metaphysics because it there where I see the true potential of humanity and the possibility of experiencing the light of Love that God has provided us within our souls (our spirit).  We spend so much time focusing outwardly when God and true happiness are inside of us, and it is inwardly that I find most interesting and attractive.  So sometimes I want to die because focusing inwardly has taught me to mistrust my eyes and everything that this world pretends to be.  I do not want to commit suicide but I do want to find and reside in the possibility of a separate reality, and the only way there is through faith in Metaphysics and the potential it offers for finding that which we refer to as God………I am dartanion2……and that’s the way I see it……….cheers……..T xo

Hi guys ~ I know it’s been a while and I do apologize for the absence………so MUCH going on right now I’d like to touch on a few subjects today that are at “The heart of my blog!”  When I began this blog it was because I wanted to convey years of proof that I had gathered along my life-path………proof that there is so much more to human capability than most of us ever even dare to pursue………metaphysical capabilities that we amuse our intellects with through books, films, and thousands of years of conversations.  Amazing potential such as Telepathy, telekinesis, premonition, dream control, astral projection, self-healing, clairvoyance, the third eye, and the list goes on and on…….but………at the heart of all of this potential that I am endeavoring to convey as fact is………..ENERGY!!……..the ability for the human mind to manipulate energy.  I go into GREAT detail about various types of proofs and methodologies for using energy and it’s potential in many of my posts here over the past year.  Just type the word or category you’re most interested in, into the search box above and you will find dozens.  But today I would like to discuss what the heart of my blog has become over the past year………and yes ENERGY is the mainstay but poetry, GOD, and my illness have become of such great interest to many of my readers in other countries, and here at home, that I’ve had to branch out into some other specific areas in my posts………FILMS have been getting amazing responses that I had no idea were going to become that interesting to my followers…….I have even done a few quotes for films on You Tube, and AMAZON……..nothing major but the fact that I was emailed and asked for more was TOTALLY unexpected.  The post I did on “The Abyss” was the second most viewed post for the year.  The MOST viewed post I did was entitled “Sensory Deprivation Chambers”………and the third most popular post I did last year was “Spinal Cord Stimulator’s”………so while I thought I was endeavoring to do a blog on Metaphysics and the Movies it has actually become “Metaphysics, Movies, My Illness, Poetry, God, and Friendship”………mind blowing when I consider that my words are being read in 73 different countries.  I have made new friends, found new Doctors, written over 600 new poems at Cosmofunnel.com (my workstation)…….of which some have evolved into a coffee table book called “Women Warriors”………a book of 100 Love poems I hope to have published VERY soon……….a re-write of the song BELLE from the Disney film Beauty and the Beast, which I was asked to do by the Naval Jazz Ensemble and will be performed all over the world this year……….Two co-writes I did with Daniel LaMaestra (the jazz musician)………a spiritual poem published in a fellow poets book of poetry and many other opportunity’s still arriving ………it seems the more I write……..the more doors open for me………..ALL BECAUSE of my undying motivation to find answers concerning GOD, SPIRITUALITY, METAPHYSICS, and ENERGY………coupled with an enormous motivation provided by my disease which has me housebound and hospitalized  for 90% of my waking hours………because in my dreams I have another life! (more on dreams later)………..what I wanted to convey to you here today is this!!………”THE HEART OF MY BLOG” has become bigger than me………it has become YOU!!………the outpouring of Love and interest in my Rare disease………the incredible emails and questions I have received about the “Third Eye” and the fact that I am a MULATTO man……….the interest I have received from BRAZIL on my experiences with separate realities is mind boggling………..MY BLOG has become people Like Georgina Richardson pouring their heart out about topics that most people NEVER discuss in public forums………….”THE HEART OF MY BLOG” has become the Love I receive from you…………I THANK YOU from the very core of me………and so do my Doctors!!……………I LOVE YOU…………smiles………..tony xo