Hi guys ~ been over a month, I know………..been dealing with this crazy illness of mine. Doctor’s tell me we’ve got a handle on it now. I don’t know. Today is a good day though and I feel like talking so let me convey some things that have been on my mind……..not in any specific order. Carlos Castaneda, as most of you know, is a HUGE part of me………at least those first three books of his are……….they have guided me most of my adult life toward that something that I’ve come to learn we ALL face eventually. OURSELVES ~ who we are and how we fit into this crazy, mixed up, and truly beautiful reality. The last few weeks I’ve been extremely ill and incapable of writing. Facing this reality without the ability to write was too much for me and I shut down. Locked the door to my room, turned my phone off, turned the lights off in my room, and stared at the History Channel for four days (H2 actually) ~ half the time I didn’t hear what was being said on the screen because the voice inside my head was much louder. I thought that at my upcoming Doctor appointment they were going to tell me that I was dying of Cancer or something and my mind began taking me places that were important to me……..like all the time I’ve missed with my two sons, my faith, what I truly believed about this crazy place we call life and I realized just how important those original three Carlos books were to helping design my personal belief system………I mean…….he was right………we ARE all luminous balls of energy that when truly looked upon are glowing enigma’s. We don’t REALLY know what happens to us after death but we have faith of one kind or another………good or evil………and it doesn’t differentiate…….we all still glow when looked at with the soft eyes Carlos teaches about in those books. We are ALL using our innate abilities to conceive of and/or imagine ways to find our way home. To greet our deaths with some sort of understanding of ourselves which, in turn, teaches us everything we need to know about our universe. It’s ALL inside of us. The Bible teaches that. Violence teaches us that. Life experiences teach us that. As I stared at the screen those past four days, barely eating or sleeping, I saw in the images flowing through the screen that even in our films we’re creating modern versions of the Bible, the stories our minds create for films, books, paintings etc. are not unlike the stories of our past in the Bible. Please understand I am NOT a big believer in the Christian version of the Bible ~ there are cultures all over the globe with their own Bible’s that are just as important and just as praiseworthy……but…….they ALL do preach the same thing……Searching, we’re always searching ~ reaching out ~ basing our beliefs on Faith and Faith alone. Faith in the seemingly impossible as well as probable. Our sense of moving forward is SO powerful that when faced with death we (at least I) didn’t become fearful……..it became comforting to know that I was moving forward……..toward something…….we have clocks and calendars to count, to keep track of our insatiable need to move forward. Whether that faith be placed in Jesus’s improbable rise from his death to the place we refer to as Heaven~ or~ if we look to the stars and our Universe….. we are……..either way……..putting our Faith in the impossible or improbable. I put a lot of my faith in Metaphysics……….my belief that we are innately endowed with extraordinary capabilities we are constantly evolving into. In any case, we are constantly moving forward, progressing, growing, dreaming, learning and reaching for the impossible. Carlos Castaneda set me on this course of my amazing search for that which we call God. Even Atheists through all their rhetoric believe in God or they wouldn’t be so adamantly fighting against believing their was a Big Bang that created this Universe and that their was someone or some thing that created the Big Bang. We know for a fact that there WAS a Big Bang that created this Universe ~ It’s NOT a big leap from knowing that crucial piece of information, to knowing there IS a God. Carlos set me on a course that took me ALL over the world………meeting people from many, many backgrounds…………I thank God I met Carlos Castaneda through his books……..because I now know for a fact……..that there is SO much more to this reality than our eyes are capable of perceiving and the beauty therein could only have come from our creator……….he is begging us to see……….we need only look with soft eyes………..I am Dartanion2……….and that’s the way I see it…………T………cheers!!
” CARLOS CASTANEDA & THE INSIDE OF ME…”
19 Saturday Sep 2015
You inspire me with the way you think and see yourself and the part you play in the world…Never stop fighting my angel….because there is more. You are truly courageous, strong and fearless….
When we are left alone in our prison of pain as we are, we get to understand a whole new reality that not many will ever come to know, unless they face circumstances such as we face daily.
As you know for the last 30 years, I have been trying to climb out of medical madness which started from mere misdiagnosis of a broken rib, and ending in a neurotransmitter being put on my spine…..the same medical device you wear, put in my body to control pain, which it did and for seven years, I got to live, work, grow, build…outside my prison of pain…..but the device was forgotten….and seven years later, the electrocution that brought me down hard, showed me more than I ever want to see again….
I have had to face my death twice…..and for the few minutes that it held me in it’s grasp…..I came face to face, not with my life flashing before my eyes…..but…..my spirit flashing big and bold through me, as God’s hand pulled me from deaths door….and laying on the floor, with such a force of electricity running through my body, (which should have kept me down,) only made me bounce back (literally) and I bounded off the floor, bouncing back into life a different person, with different powers…..and I took a course in understanding the mind…and what I was thinking….my connection to the divine….
Despite suffering more injuries and memory loss….The mind that so many forget to use, became a new master in my life….and the more I looked into the power of the mind….the vibrations it puts out to the universe, the more I convinced myself that I could change the war that my mind had created….from this medical madness I had to live in….
The sad reality of our situations…although so much different, is so much the same…..closing the door, and shutting down…..is what we try to do….but God and our mind chooses something different each time….and its the loudest sound we’ll come to recognize….pulling us back from the reality of our silent lives….to the reality of our spirit….
God and the universe and our mind are one. When we come to understand our place on this beautiful planet, we get to evolve into something we never considered, or thought of…..a spiritual being….I heard it say that “we are physical beings, having a spiritual experience” and not human beings having a spiritual experience….
First our spirit is born…..then our physical body’s are formed…our spirit is the strongest connection we will have to the divine….and we become divine ourselves, because we accept our strong faith as being the root of that spiritual being…..and we become fearless..
We are not VICTIMS…but VICTIMS OF CIRCUMSTANCES….and we can change many of those circumstances by changing our mindset….and understanding ourselves and the part we are to play in our co-creation of the way we want our world to become….
We have more mind power than we think….with proof that it can cure cancer, and alleviate so much suffering….sometimes we cause ourselves the most suffering without knowing why….and it goes back to how we were programmed by what we saw, what we heart, and what we were taught….
Understanding ourselves, brings us greater faith, self love and peace….we won’t fear death, as much as we fear what we see others do with their lives……I would gladly trade shoes for one day with the zombies I see walking though life, unaware of anything around them…..because in that one day, I will be free of pain, and free of my prison….I will do more in one day than I’ve seen others do in a year…or a lifetime…..
Fully explore your mind, because you’ll know no fear….and you’ll learn what God has been trying to tell us all our lives….about the greatness within us all….
We will be fine angel…..God knows we deserve so much more than that which we write about….and one day we will have it all….
OUR MINDS DIMENSIONS
Our minds are two-dimensional
And depending on which state we choose to reside
Know that we have thoughts that can contort our reality
When you learn mind power, old thoughts are denied
Stop and let your mind listen to something new daily
Instead of waking with those same negative thoughts
Once you open up that window, you’ll see many dimensions
You’ll be faced with the greatest person in life, you forgot
Patience and time will show you new answers
And by listening and learning, God will show you much more
If you are still on this earth, then you do have a purpose
When you explore who you are, you’ll know what that purpose is for
Forgive those that do not know such brave thinking
That we have at our disposal today
Because, when you break through the walls of your minds prison
Resistance dissolves and new thoughts are at play
God is speaking dear angel, and in every message
He says, “whatever you choose, remember that will be your choice”
Understand your mind’s power, then you can become a leader
And as you rebuild your new world, you will stand tall and rejoice…
© Brenda Keough
August 2, 2015
Hey Brenda!!………This is the best comment this blog has ever received………I thank you for your soft intelligence and soul-searching mind. You are quite simply, my kinda person!!……..THANK YOU so much……..I have a private message coming for you on COSMO………..hugs-n-smiles………WOW!!…….amazing………..T xoxo