Hi guys!!  Here’s the third of the 25 “Woman Warrior” pieces for the empowering women through poetry series!!……  The others can be found at my work-station ~ COSMOFUNNEL. COM………If you’ve been following my blog then you know this is part of the series that will have contributing art-work by Marvel and DC comic book artists ~much like the picture above.(above artwork from Google Images)  For more info. see the other posts here on my blog.  This is typical of most of the series where women are under complete control of their respective environments.  THIS is one of my favorites………SALINDARHA, from a race of blind women warriors………hope you enjoy……..

” SALINDARHA ~ SHADOW WARRIOR “

With one last, mighty exertion, she thrust herself upward, reared back with no inhibitions
She moved through the night like a glove on the hand of her sword gleaming like a premonition
She sheathed her “Revenge”, to conceal her position….

The swift blast of heat almost snuffed out her awareness of being alone
She heard a distant wailing, it took only a moment to realize the voice was her own
Through years and years they learned weaponry’s training and magical precision
Salindarha was from a race where blindness was quite prevalent amongst it’s women
Consequently, all of their other senses were distinctive, and extremely advanced
So sensing the heat from below, she became shadow and she began to dance
Along the edge of the volcano and with the stealth of a feather, she began to descend
And sizing up the numbers below she began formulating her cunning attack
The twenty-three savages had just wounded and raped seven of her friends
Salindarha had been away from their dwellings, practicing with her sword, “Revenge”
It had been foretold:
That a woman warrior from her race, would one day gain sight and wield the sword
To protect the blind women of the tribe ~ she had just gained her sight the night before
Now, with all her skills and her sight she held “REVENGE” in her hands
And as wrath began boiling over in her ~ in an instant ~ she had a plan
She could smell the stink, of heathen death upon them, as she moved through shadow
They could not see her around their camp, a skill she had long-ago mastered
In one swift motion, “Revenge” was out of it’s sheath, and set ablaze
Moving with the powerful wind, of a helicopter blade
She was so fast, that the savages stood stunned
As heads began dropping like leaves, one-by-one
And with bodies still standing, blood spurted like fountains from their necks
The sword bright with blood, in moments, all were dead
Except for seven savages, who stood bleeding
And completely amazed….

She came to an abrupt halt just in front of them, as they began slowly backing away
She asked loudly, with her green eyes ablaze, “Any last words to say?”
But before they could utter a word they were slashed through their cocks and legs
She screamed, “I’m waiting for you ALL to beg!!”
For her seven sisters they had raped, and now she would take home their genitals
To be placed on display
And instead of ending their lives, she just left them writhing in pain
She licked the blood from “REVENGE”
And with their cocks in her hands
Just like the shadows
She slowly, faded away……..

Tony Taylor    (Chicago)

Hey guys, what I’m about to convey to you is not an accusation of any kind………I just need to talk about this and I seem to do best when I write……….for those of you who haven’t been following this blog ~ I sometimes post updates concerning my undiagnosed condition of Polyneuropathy to the extreme……..I apologize to those of  you have come for a Metaphysical needle in the arm……..today is a “kiss my penis” day to the world of medicine.  I have been struggling with the fact that my nerve endings are dying for the past four-plus years.  Some days my feet throb so badly that I have to take meds when I’m awakened by them so that I can find the ability to walk to the bathroom without facing a great deal of pain ~ but that’s not how it began.  It began with what I kept thinking was my feet falling asleep.  Since then I have had 13 surgeries and a final decision to have the implant on my spine because living with pain sucks so bad that it steals your entire life away.  I want my life back.  My doctor tells me we can do this $25,000 dollar operation to implant a device on my spine that will send electro-stimulation to my feet and reduce my pain greatly thereby giving me some semblance of quality of life ~ because I spend 80% of my time in my room with my feet elevated to help the pain in my feet.  Well, what most of you don’t know is that the operation actually was $166,000 dollars and the doctor who set me on this course was fired under secretive circumstances and the stimulator is causing more pain and difficulties than when I first came to their offices…Why would he lie to me about that if he wasn’t up to his ass in something illegal.  Since I’ve had the stimulator implanted……..no one has followed up to see how it’s working or anything………..fortunately I have an amazing team of doctors at Northwestern Memorial Hospital who are helping greatly.  But aside from the fact that my feet are completely numb and the numbness moving up my leg, where constant pain is generated from the bottoms of my feet and up into my legs……..like open wounds throbbing and little needles and lightning strikes hitting the bottoms of my feet and shooting upward………I now have extreme back pain caused by cartilage forming around the lead lines that are connected to my spine ~ right where the L3, L4, and L5 discs are located on the spine.  Moments where my back freezes me in place with gripping lower back pain and I have to grab onto something without falling.  The battery has been implanted in my stomach and sometimes sleeping on my right side is impossible because the battery gets hot and feels out of place……but the worst part of this is that the electro-stimulation that is aimed at my feet now has my entire body shaking like one of those vibrating lazy boy chairs……..it doesn’t stop, the tremulousness is in my chest, arms, hands, stomach, legs and feet……..I’m shaking ALL of the time……….and you can’t turn it off …….like I was told in the beginning.  If you turn the stimulator completely off it takes 4 or 5 days for any kind of relief but those 4 or 5 days are another little nightmare alone.  If you ask a private practicing neurologist these days about the numbness and sharp pain from your feet their first response is “Have you thought of a Spinal Cord Simulator”…………I have talked several people about this…….my doctors are now in the midst of having this thing removed………interesting how they forget to tell you it’s 10 times my more dangerous to have it removed………..so here’s where I am right now………….I take seventeen pills per day, I rarely leave my apartment………I sometimes don’t sleep for three days at a time……..I forget to eat (have to remind myself with marijuana)………I have so much pain in my feet that I cry alone and pray that I might understand………the doctor’s were only trying to help me and make a buck for themselves on the side…….I’m cool with all of that………..what really sucks is that my entire body is shaking on the inside , 24-7, no getting away from it, it’s driving me nuts……..My new doctors have recognized that I have been cut off from the world for 4 years and that depression is not helping and so they want me in psycho-therapy where they can give me more pills and to help me deal with the fact that I am no longer in control of my own body……….when I touch electric objects now they react in weird ways……..the electro-stimulation in my body is in charge now………my physiology is changing…….and my ability to accept the fact that my nerve endings are dying and NO ONE has any clue why……..my teeth are falling out  ~ no nerve ending, no teeth…………the simple fact that I have no diagnosis whatsoever is the worst………must have done something pretty bad in a past life or something………last week my home healthcare doctor said he thinks I should get a wheelchair………I told him there was no way in hell I was giving up………and a wheelchair is the symbol for pity in this country………..you’ll NEVER get me in one of those things………anyway I’m rambling through anger here……and trust me….I’ve left a LOT of crazy ass stuff out of this post………I just wanted to say that these guyd are going around implanting things and saying it will help……..but it seems to me it’s just a big conveyer belt where they are trying to sell as many as they can………with no regard for how their patient is doing after they have implanted it.   One thing, when I first got this implant i did get two visits from the representatives at St Jude’s to see how i was doing since they were part of the reason i decided to make this mistake……….i just want my life back and no one seems to understand what’s happening to me……….crazy right?…….well i’ll do some happier stuff tomorrow…………later………..T xo

So many crazy days lately ~ so sorry I’ve not been keeping with the blog much  ~ I would like to share with you some thoughts of late. ……..THIS WORLD really is quite the complicated and spectacularly beautiful place that dreams are made of.  When you sit quietly and look, listen, smell, see, taste and recall everything you can ~ in your most serene and secret place, this world can be viewed in it’s stunning appeal and mind-boggling, quintessential, beauty and light.  It makes a man want to live ~ to see another day…………I have often thought that this reality we live in, is the Hell that the Bible speaks of because of its brutality and blood thirsty treatment of living things.  From Kings and Generals to Mother Nature herself ~ death can come in a bloody unexpected moment.  Once that bloody dagger touches a persons immediate circle of family or friends, the mind begins questioning and doubting the World itself.  For me personally, the idea od leaving this world has been a working part of my “self-talk” since my early twenty’s, when suicide and building a cabin in the woods were VERY attractive options.  Like Thoreau at Walden’s pond I have remained in check because, like he ~ I did not want to find my death and suddenly discover that I had not lived at all.  Since that suicide attempt, in my early twenty’s, I have lived full throttle………finding myself in places and situations all over This World that, in retrospect, I would never have thought myself capable of.  For many avid readers Henry David Thoreau’s “WALDEN” was a life changing experience for it having elluded to the idea that walking the “normal” path in life lacked worlds of perspective on one’s environment!  (truly amazing read if you haven’t read it yet)…………..For me, the world was opened up to me by Carlos Castaneda’s first three books on man’s ability to understand and manipulate energy in order to see ourselves from a TOTALLY separate reality.  A reality achieved by Shamanistic meditative practices and altered states of consciousness.  So as I’ve listened, learned, participated in, explored, and meditated with different people, from different cultures all over this world of ours ~ I have come to see that spirituality is a constant.  Whether it be in a profound sense of Atheism or a profound sense of religious fervor, the one thing that spins on without question ~ is the World itself ~ it is like the mother of all things in the minds of humanity.  It is taken for granted, it is revered, it is abused, and it is being healed………and like human beings themselves it is constantly evolving toward the day of it’s death.  This World is us ~ and We are This World.  A magnificent enigma, rare and precious in the grand scheme of our ever-expanding universe ~ and dressed appropriately in the shining glow of God’s Love and incomprehensible gifts………..I am Dartanion2…….and that’s the way I see it………….cheers……….T xoxo