Our faith, our beliefs, come to us in moments of recognition and in those moments we find that we place more importance on those “epiphany’s” and “out of body experiences” than any other moments of our entire lives.  We use them to guide our lives.  We say to our closest friends ~ “here’s something I haven’t told anyone else in my entire life!”……..and in those “pass it on” moments our lives actually do mean something.  The most profound moments of our entire lives are passed on to another soul with whom we find we have an affinity for or with.  We give up the past to the ideal listener in order to move onto that thing we call hope. We find way’s to explain hope in such random and “per chance” type conversations that we fail to recognize that hope was actually born in those small moments of epiphany’s and out of body experiences even though when they occurred they were the most important things to ever have affected us.  And so, we pass on through the rest of our lives speaking of our hopes and dreams and strangely unaccepting of those most powerful moments when we actually opened the doorways to the soul and the profound wisdom of the metaphysical.  Why is it that the soul remains so separate from our acceptance of the unfairness and cruelty we find in most of our waking hours in this lifetime?  We “hope’ and yet we forget that we were “gifted” in profound moments of realization.  Why are we unable to remain in those moments?  Why are we so transfixed on the mundane and  cruel repetition of our lives?  We get up each day accepting of the idea that we must do our part by contributing our time to someone else’s dreams and ambitions?  ” Why do men fee that the natural history of man has never been written, but he is always leaving behind what you have said of him, and it becomes old, and books of Metaphysics worthless?” ~ This last quote and previous ideas are not my own they are thoughts and ideas I have learned from a man named Ralph Waldo Emerson ~ one of my Hero’s in this life.  He helps me think beyond myself.  He helps me consider from afar, that which is near.  Or, to place myself on the moon and then turn my head back to look at this earth and what is happening upon it, the huddled masses doing the same things day in and day out, like ants in an ant farm.  From that removed point of view our lives can appear unimportant but the lesson to be learned to here is NOT that.  It is in the recognition of the life-force of the beings walking on the face of the earth for when you consider life from a distant perspective it becomes blatantly obvious that the life-force inside of men is descending into it from a place that we do not, yet, understand.  There is no book or University to explain to us where our life-force from hails from.  We constantly acknowledge that within our daily occurrences and coincidences in this lifetime of ours that there is a higher place or origin of the totality of things and yet we do not explain them, we simply accept that there is a heaven, or a God from whence all things stream into us, into our soul.  Our soul, that place we know innately is there and yet, once again, we cannot explain it.  We do however, recognize the common heart we all share, the commonality of Love and it’s most pure and pristine example of humanity’s goodness.  It is of this pure bent of our nature that every man, at some point in his life, is profoundly aware.  The SOUL circumscribes all things,  freedom, power, Love…..it abolishes time and space.  It is the soul where re all things are born. There would be no existence without the soul itself for when we think about it or write about it ~ it is the only word that man has no understanding of ~ and the reason that it is truth is because of it’s link to the life-force (or spirit) for which we have no comprehension or even words to describe it……….so like Emerson when we sit up on the moon and look down at the planet earth and the beings inhabiting it we can see an energy linking them all together but we cannot explain where that stream of life-force or energy (spirit) streams from, hails from, comes from……….We as human beings have been given an incomprehensible gift that unites us all as one and yet we live our live separately and consider ourselves more important than one another.  I think that which has created us all would be VERY impressed if we could understand the strength we could find in the unity of that which Emerson termed “The Over-Soul” and put it to some good and loving, utilitarian use  The soul is the most profound thing ever to happen to the known galaxy, perhaps its time recognize it for what it is and then get on with the business of finding our creator.  ….I am Dartanion2 …….and that’s the way I see it………cheers ……tony xo

I have spent over four years now in my room, my apartment, and doctor’s offices, with occasional visits to the grocery store and nothing more.  During this time I have had thousands of hours to reflect on my life and my approaching death.  I have written and read and researched poetry, physics, metaphysics, and my belief systems cry for the truth about God.  During this time, four people that I know well ~ died!  As I grow older I realize that I will know more and more people to die and those deaths have driven me to know truth.  And I understand that the only truth I can possibly know intimately is my own.  As I begin reflecting on my life I think to myself how much of it I have just wasted ~ just thrown away ~ but as I become more honest with myself I come to realize that none of what I have done or , not done, is all equally important.  Because my life has been spent with other people and how we affect other peoples lives we never really know the whole of.  It came to me through another Emerson quote that it is me, it is my own self worth that truly matters.  Emerson’s quote,  “Nothing is at last sacred but the integrity of your own mind.”  Do I understand that I am good person in the depths of me, do I approach my daily challenges selfishly?  Do I put others before myself?  When I asked myself those questions the answer was no and yes.  I am selfish when put under this type of scrutiny but there are times when I do things for others that are truly kind.  But at the same time I think to myself that I have done something good so where is my reward.  That still adds up to me being selfish and as I grow older I try to do more good things because I am selfishly trying to please that which I choose to call GOD.  And so Emerson’s quote begins to play a greater and greater role in my thinking ~ “NOTHING is at last SACRED but the INTEGRITY of your own mind.”  It’s in my mind where I lie to myself, where I keep hidden the lies I have told others, where I shake at the idea of my own death, it is in my own mind where I must learn to like myself.  No one else can do that for me.  We bring to life what we can and we see only that which we bring to life.  The beauty of the world and books belong to the eyes that see them.  It depends on the persons busy life if they ever even have the chance to recognize the poetry or the importance of a thing.  As we grow older and the more death becomes a part of our life, the more we begin to appreciate.  For me, it is my belief system that I am working hardest at.  I have always loved people and believed that most people are inherently good and so now I am on the biggest quest of my life………..preparing myself for the most honorable death my personal belief system will allow and in doing so I pray that I learn enough about the origins of life and Love to be able to pass on what I have learned to those I love personally and any other person curious about my VERY specific beliefs about God and humanity. Today I can honestly say, I like who I am, and I am excited to wake each day with the potential of learning a new piece to this puzzle we call life.  My heart is filled with Love for I am truly blessed with the VERY special people in my life and the unshakeable belief, and profound faith in the unfathomable idea of God’s existence.  My experience in this reality, as well as your own, is the most rare and precious energy in the entire universe………..I am Dartanion2……….and that’s the way I see it!!………cheers….T xo